2004-02-25

What am I doing?

I have no idea. I feel a bit lost which I'm okay with... or I should say I'm trying to be okay with it. I suppose I feel like I'm in some sort of in between space and I expected it but I'm not sure how to proceed.

I'm helping my sister and her husband get their small business more organized with a new database system and office network. I'm enjoying the work and the time with them but in the back of my mind I wonder about what I'll do next. I'm also enjoying the exploration of relationships within my family though it's difficult. Miscommunication seems to happen so often and there is a tone of negativity which colors people's behavior. Why? There is so much I do not understand about relationships... about my fellow humans... about my own family.

What are we doing on this planet?