Maybe it’s the heat? 

Boy, I’m slackin. I have not been motivated to do anything the past few days. Actually, I am taking a more pro-active role at my place of employment but outside of that I, er, just don’t care. I’m felling very apathetic about most things. It’s interesting, but some folks think I need fixing. There seems to be a sentiment that there’s something wrong with me. I suppose I can’t know for sure but I don’t think there is.

Why is happiness so important? Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to be miserable. But I don’t know that I want to be happy either. I think I just want to be. I’ll take the good with the bad and try to keep it all in context.

I think that perhaps I’ve just exhausted my limited social energy. I’m feeling like I want to be alone more than I have in the past. I’m not content but I’m not really interested in making any changes at the moment. Yes, I want to be left alone. That may sound harsh but it’s where I’m at. I need space. I’m feeling a shift in myself. Perhaps it’s only temporary but what has been open is now closed. I will be by myself because that’s what I have to do. 

I think I used to be afraid of being alone. Perhaps it was a fear of what that might imply about me. If I’m alone then I’m not desired which is a negative about me. I think otherwise now. I’m not afraid of this. I wish I’d faced certain fears that I’ve turned away from in the past. Perhaps it’s the easy way out, but it’s what I choose for now. Perhaps I’m just looking for some sort of mental safety or comfort, I’m not sure. I suppose every choice has positives and negatives, every choice is right and wrong.

07/03/2003 
They accepted his offer 

U.S. troops attacked in Iraq. It’s not funny it’s just sick. He knows he’s safe and makes such fucked up, clueless remarks.

Adam Felber at Fanatical Apathy responds:

Bush Double-Dog Dares Militants to Hurt US Soldiers 

WASHINGTON (Reuters) - President Bush on Wednesday challenged militants who have been killing and injuring U.S. forces in Iraq, saying “bring them on” because American forces were tough enough to deal with their attacks. “There are some who feel like that conditions are such that they can attack us there,” Bush told reporters at the White House. “My answer is bring them on…” 

“…in fact,” the President continued, “I don’t think Iraqi militants have the guts to kill more Americans. I think they’re yeller .” Bush, who during Vietnam war bravely combatted an extremely inconvenient schedule, made his remarks a mere 6,211 miles from the front lines. 

07/03/2003 
This is funny 

  1. Pay a visit to Google.

  2. Type in (without using any quotes): weapons of mass destruction

  3. Click the “I’m Feeling Lucky” button.

Go do it now…

07/03/2003 
Bring them on 

The tough guy invites attacks on U.S. troops. What a putz.

07/03/2003 
Where did they go George? 

Meeting last month at a sweltering U.S. base outside Doha, Qatar, with his top Iraq commanders, President Bush skipped quickly past the niceties and went straight to his chief political obsession: Where are the weapons of mass destruction? Turning to his Baghdad proconsul, Paul Bremer, Bush asked, “Are you in charge of finding WMD?” Bremer said no, he was not. Bush then put the same question to his military commander, General Tommy Franks. But Franks said it wasn’t his job either. A little exasperated, Bush asked, So who is in charge of finding WMD? After aides conferred for a moment, someone volunteered the name of Stephen Cambone, a little-known deputy to Donald Rumsfeld, back in Washington. Pause. “Who?” Bush asked.

Heh. The “leader” of the “free world”. It just gets better and better. The rest of the story is here.